marykahani

Listening to a podcast about anhedonia and how our brains do or do not process pleasure. Pleasure attainment has been low for a while now; mostly that makes it hard to anticipate fun events and register them as actually fun. While that hasn't been great for IRL social life, my CONLANG has benefitted greatly. The CONLANG page is more and more fleshed out every day and I finally finished the script so I can actually handwrite it without just transliterating into roman script.

Next step for the script would be to digitize it... however, I made it a crusive script so I can write as quickly as possible. And that is signficiantly more complicated to encode as a font. At least, that's what I've seen so far but I haven't investigated in-depth.

To the interwebs!

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The interwebs say to use FontForge. You can have a hand-written reference image and then create a font on top of it. For a cursive font, you have to create different glyphs depending on the height or style of the connection between different letters. You standardize the types of connectors based on the heights of the connections or whatever the case may be for your font (language).

I suspect my font will have pretty consistent line weight for all parts of the letters b/c I don't use a nib pen or anything like that. I can play with that after I have a core script that does in fact connect up.

I was a fb marketplace maniac today and obtained a mechanical keyboard, ergonomic mouse (weird but so far good), and a drafting table as a desk. Now that my computer is fixed, I realized I would actually like to have a desk/craft space in my room. My roommate will appreciate my not taking over the living room or dining room table.

Because it is a drafting table, another purchase must be made to have a cushion for my wrists so I don't feel the pencil-ledge while typing. Currently, I'm using a folded over towel which isn't too bad but then it feels like the keyboard is below my wrists rather than above which doesn't feel right.

Do I have to make a new p element for each paragraph? I think that's what p stands for. An empirical question I won't try to answer right now.

It turns out that sleeping enough and actual rest/time of work does in fact rejuvenate me and I am in peak form. Running around town collecting items for my desk set up while learning about conlangs and, in particular, the existence of the Shavian alphabet and Toki Pona.

Toki Pona raised some philosophical ideas about what language is for - it seems very artistic and painterly in its application because of the very low number of words (120-180ish). Certainly you could muddle though to describe most things in the language but I imagine there's lots of moments where the clarity is very much up to the inventiveness and creativitiy of the speaker and listener's minds. Aesthetically, I'm opposed to a hyper-minimal language, but my maximalist tendencies are always matched with a mathematical appreciation for narrowing something down to its raw essence and bare essentials.

Perhaps it is time to use a text editor or at least a markdown editor to write these posts rather than writing them directly into the neocities dashboard files...

And to find a way to archive/show only one blogpost at a time... And make a site to-do list...

On this revoluationary day, a revolutionary update: my friend wiped and re-configured my gaming laptop which had been out of commission for about 3 years. So now I have a functioning laptop that is not viewable by my employer. Let's goooooooooooo

A grid appears! Color schemes are still very much in flux, but I'm enjoying this periwinkle for now. My CSS file looks like a mess of pre-set colors (none of which are working right now for mysterious reasons):

              :root {
                --green-color:#BCED09;
                --white-color:#FFFFFF;
                --midnight-color:#07393C;
                --pink-color:#F90093;
                --black-color:#000000;
                --periwinklelight:#c6c8ee;
                --periwinkledark:#bbb6df;
                --raisin:#2d2327;
                --rose:#bd6b73;
                --amaranth:#a30b37;
                --offwhite:#fcfcff;
              } 
            

I've been reflecting on what makes art good for me and what inspires me and why I want to create things... I realized I'm often oriented more towards "producing" than "creating." Sharing with others online (specifically strangers) has become an assumed goal of whatever creative project I adventure. But I don't want it to be? But I also want it to be available and reachable and searchable; I want to influence people. It's the same drive that has made me want to publish a book - to change others in the way I have been changed by the media I consume.